I have decided to resurrect this badly neglected blog to join in with something which has captured my attention this year.
During the whole of yesterday (1/1/14), I had a word going through my head and even started a web post on it in a forum that I frequent. It wouldn’t leave my mind and this is not usual for me. I am not a very spiritual person. My mind is usually full of anything but the things of God, much as I wish it were otherwise. I am one of those people who ‘want to want to’ be passionate about God. I would love to wake up each morning with thoughts only of what I can do for God today, who I can impact for him, what I have to be thankful to him for, how I can serve him but generally I wake up thinking, “Oh no. It’s morning!”, closely followed by thoughts of washing, kids, Facebook…..in fact, just about anything other than those of God.
So yesterday was unusual, to say the least. I’m not a New Year’s Resolution type person either. I don’t make them because I know that as soon as I make the decision to keep them, I will fail. This is different, though. I didn’t have to sit and think about this. I didn’t spend ages deliberating over what I could give up, what I could do differently this year. The word was there. At the forefront of my mind and refusing to budge. I didn’t know what to do with it, though. I thought I might make the most of it and start reading stuff rather than the usual escape fiction I read in order not to have to think about the serious stuff but that’s about it…..
….And then I stumbled across oneword365.com through a friend’s Facebook page. It is perfect. You decide on one word (or in my case, it decides on you!) and you spend time over the next year deliberately thinking about it. How you do it, how often you do it, is up to you. It’s not prescriptive. You own it. You succeed or fail depending on your own criteria. I’m not setting one. If I do, I will fail! I’m going to start it and pray that over the year, it keeps deciding on me, keeps coming back to me and causing me to think about it and be changed by that pondering.
So my word. It’s not popular! You can ‘Join a Tribe’ of others who have also chosen your word. I clicked the link and I’m on my own. Only 481 people have signed up so far, though, so it may not stay that way. Others may join me, having seen this. Some may join because the word was just there for them, too, and they have been wondering quite what to do with it. But for now, it’s just me and my word. And that’s ok.
Holiness. That is my word. It sounds so pious, doesn’t it? The only time you hear a variation of the word ‘holy’ applied to anything but God, it tends to come accompanied by two other words: ‘than thou’. Meaning that someone thinks they are so much better than those around them. That’s not what I mean. The definition is: dedicated or consecrated to God or a religious purpose; sacred. That’s what I want to be. Totally dedicated to God. His, from the moment I wake to the time I sleep, and then whilst sleeping too. His, in every area of my life. His, in everything I say, think and do.
I don’t know what will happen this year. I may type this today and then not think about it again until prompted next year by an email from the oneword365 people, but I hope not. I really, really hope that this journey brings me closer to God, grows fruit in me that is evidence that I’m becoming more like Jesus.
Watch this space, I guess…..